my life is going round and round and it's driving me crackers!!

ppl i know told me females are harder to please if compare to males.

oh puhhhh-lease!!

that statement is soooo goddamm untrue to begin with.

main concept i believe in is "each person has its own needs and wants, but one can never be satisfied of what they have" <--- and of cos, it applies to both sexes!!

but in my own eyes and opinion, i'd rather say males have a more problematic demand than me. i meant in general the males ppl i know.

they tend to make the ppl aruond them suffer without them knowing. even after they know, they still kept stressing us females are the hardest to please.

please, fark off from this world and live in ur tiny tadpole jakun world.

u know what's the saddest thing i'm currently experiencing?

i was talking to one of my housemates just now through msn and i'm sitting infront of the monitor typing while crying my arse off!! we were talking bout everything. from my  dinner to my future and vice versa. then my tears just kept flowing non stop. farking emo i tell u. *come to think of it, the other day while i was using mic to chat with another one of them.. i nearly had tears streaming down but i held it back*

this time, i won't deny that i miss them loads. won't deny that i loveeee them to bits. won't deny that they actually made my days in uk more bearable (extreme bearable is more like it). won't deny that they helped me out in so darn many ways *eg. getting me a part time job as well as hunting PERMANENT job in uk for me. but of cos, i let them down*. won't even deny the fact that one of the reason of my returning to uk *if i actually decided to* is because of them all (all 4 of them).

with them, i can act like myself. be myself. talk like myself, eat like myself and even sleep like myself infront of them!! cos why? ppl like them.. they are good ppl. it's soo easy to judge ppl when u live with them for 11 months and see each other 24/7 day and night.

but guess what? i could only sit here, in my own room, all alone, and continue crying my arse off cos of missing them..

hsemates.. they are good to have, good to hang around with!! but what is the worst thing that could ever happen is.. they are not long lasting!! they tend to come near u, make ur life a happy on and then awhile later, have to go separate ways and make u cry like niagara falls on ur cheek.

sigh~ to add more tears, listening to some emo songs right now

p/s: i wonder how many posts i wrote regarding my hsemates. before i left uk and after i leave.

i miss my chicken soup spahetti. omggg~ sinful man!! to add more omph to this dish, it's only cooked by none other than myself!!

so, i will start buying the ingredients so i can cook whenever i'm drop-dead hungry.

yes. it is such a brilliant idea. but than, weather so hot!! how to cook?!!

i've decided:

1. i want a car for myself.
2. i want to work in a land far far away.
3. i will shift to the land far far away so it's nearer to work.
4. i will hire a chef and a maid and even a private butler when i'm rich in the land far far away of course.
5. then .. ya. that's about it for the meantime.

why chef u may ask? i need one with michelin stars (or something like that) so he could cook for me everyday without asking me what i wanna eat! and i could have all 3 meals on the table without even bother stepping foot outside of the house!!

so brilliant right?

ok. back to my night-dream.

u know what?!!

my laptop has come back into my arms after 2.5 weeks worth of dissapearance in the "HP hospital".

i am utterly GLAD to have u back, lappie. i promise with all my heart i'll treasure u better by um.. appreciating u more?

okay. nvm.. i am just superbly happy!! and my datas are still in there too!! u cannot imagine my excitement when i first saw it in the shop.

it was like... love @ 1st sight.

<3 plentiful for my lappie

today, i met up with an old friend of mine since secondary school.

- a friend which i will not forget n will always be kept in touch.
- a friend which used to be my "assistant monitor" back in Form 2. LOL.. *ok, most of u would know who is that by now*
- a friend which is my neighbour and always will be.
- a friend which coincidently the birthday month falls on the same one as me.
- a friend...

that'll always be my friend from the point we started talking when we were placed in the same class in Form 2 .

my dinner was suppose to be 7pm (my own estimation) cause my fellow dinner partner told me he might be able to go off work by 5pm or 6pm like so!! i reckon, by giving a whole 1 hour should be able to reach my house. no?? ok.

next comes the no-msg-given to me approach. therefore i called and he said will most prolly be delayed and reached about 8.30pm (basically cause blardy roads everywhere will be jammed up with the truckloads amount of cars simply bcos it is friday today). so, ok.. no problem!!

i went and helped my parents ta pau dinner, cause i got dinner partner liow mar!! i don't have to join them. to my surprise! one packet of hokkien mee can make me stand there for 30minutes for it to be ready.

reached home at 8.30pm. afraid dinner partner might reach infront of my house already, (normally reach then i'll receive a missed call) but than no miss call or any sms'es as well.

so i made the initiative to call (cause obviously I am farkingly, goddammitly hungry. my stomach practically playing a spice girls' tune forgod'ssake!!) but then went into recorded msg.

already am so angry and sad and hungry :(( then i called again. OH!! to my amazed, he picked it up. and to my even more surprised, i heard a guy's background voice talking over there. *it was by then 8.50pm*

so i asked, "is that who i think he is??"
he said, "ya."
me already half screaming, "why on earth is your collegue still in your car?!!" (he gotta fetch his collegue back to the office hence the even more delays)
then he calmly said, "ya. coming.. reaching to the office soon already"

then of course, i calmly waited for my ride to be here. at approximately 9.33pm, i had a missed call. fuh! i can't tell u how thankful i was.

from hungry become just slightly hungry. swt.. had our dinner at 10pm!
kesian me and kesian the fellow working non stop from 10am onwards too.